Ryan Medema

04:40 pm - new year

so its a new year its my year to graditate[[lol]] and i cant wait to be out of school and get a job that pays decent money....

FOr new years me and heather stayed at my house and played games with the parents and i got pretty intoxicated but it was fun so heather ended up staying the night.....then we woke up and ate she had to got to work so i picked up the house and my room....christmas was great spent some money on my girl and she got me some clothes that are great and i got alot of clothes from my parents


so break is almosst over been hanging out with my girl and workin but i got fired which isnt good but what can u do......so, school tomorrow and i have a soccer game tonight thats about it for me

lata

[[I LOVE HEATTHHHHERRR<3]]
yea, i wrote that
XoXo*

03:16 pm - TIght

damn i havent updated in a long time

well soccer is done which fucking sucks knowin that i will never play for my school again but what can i do i ended up scoring 21 goals not to bad if i do say so myself....i am very proud of my girl she was at every game for me no matter how far away she was there to cheer for me love u babe<3.....

school is going  great so easy i have nothing hard to do so i can graduate on time which is a big plus but its hard knowin that it si my last year then i have to go get a real job so i can do the things that i need to for me and my girl because im sure u all know i plan to marry her :)....so i cant wait to get out of school but u know it will be a good day and a sad day when i walk across that stage.....

i remain deerless havent seen anything though...'..i just got done doing leaves now im waiting for heather to get her so we can hang out before i go to class which suck i hate going cause the i dont get to spend time with my girl btu im out for now i have to go get in the shower then go to my girls house so im out 

Later   ..........I LOVE U BABE 

Current Mood: hot

08:52 pm

..,,right now im chillen at my girls we just got back from her grandmothers house we went and had some steak and some big ass baked potatoes....,,
           

  well nothing special has been going on. haven`t updated in a grip. with my girl everyday everything is going perfect we`ve been together for almost 3 years not counting the silly lil break ups that we have had before im sure that won`t happen again though i think we have both learned that we are right for each other and there isn`t a person out there that is better for us.....

school has been goin great i have straight A`s that hasn`t happened since like 6th grade but it`s kinda hard to not have straight A`s when u have all shop classes all day. it`s been fun soccer everyday- the team is doing pretty good we got our ass beat by spring lake but we will see what happens the next time we play them.....right now im like number 6 or 7 in the area for leading scorers and also for assists its a good year all together.......I got the grades......the finest girl......and the soccer season.....so all together life can`t get any better thats all for this update lata....

                                                                       I LOVE U BABE

Current Mood: flirtin with her

12:30 am - tight

 WOw had a fun weekend i stayed at my girls most of the time we went to a wedding yesterday that was fun but some assholes had to ruin for the bride she was cryin and shit i felt bad but what can u do......well me and heather went over to her neighbors house the other night to talk to him and his brother and they were drunk as fuck that was hilarious the were throwin shit in the fire  and being all sorts of drunk that was a good night then tongiht we went out to my mom and dads friends house and i drank some beer with my dad and we played horse shoes while the girls cooked and me and pops beat the other guys 3 games they only beat us once that was great.......i start work tomorrow got the job at sams thats tight now i will actually have some money to do the things that i want to do but that means less time spent with my girl but owell we got alot time to spend with eachother if were are goin to get married but thats a couple years away but that will be a good day for me and her but that day cant come soon enough but anyways got to be uply tomorrow to go to therapy with her then we are comin back her then i work at 2 then i think her and my sister are goin shoppin so im out for now update later.....

I LOVE U

Current Mood: irritated

09:16 pm

Not much goin on right now im in gaylord with my girl.....

So somethings have happened lateley i got caught in a big lie about seeing some girls boobs which i should have never have done i regret it the moment it happened then i lied about it to my girl because i was scared that i would loose her.......it was close but being the best girl in the world she is giving me another chance which means so much to me because i dont want to ever lose her again but i did fuck up and make another mistake which i admit now i have to earn here trust back which is understandable but im just glad that she didnt leave me that tells me really how much she loves me and she didnt deserve none of this so once again i will appologize to her for the last time because nothing else is going to happen in this relationship to mess things up for me and her again.....so that was my last appology to u baby because nothing else will come between us i promise......im so happy that i didnt lose her she is the girl that i want to spend the rest of my life with and she knows that........ but thats all for now i will update later....but there will never be another entry where i have to appologize because im done being the immature boy that i was...its time to grow up and show her how much she really means to me.......

I LOVE U BABY WITH ALL MY HEART

Current Mood: loved

09:01 pm

Wow......Im so happy.....I knew that this would happen im back with heather its for good this time no more arguing and fighting like inmature kids everything is going perfect i look at her and i just cant help but smile she means the world to me....yea i tried to front like i was over her but i dont think that is ever going to be possible thing sare meant to be for me and her ......I cant wait to see what the future brings even though we already know what is goin to happen dont we baby......its all perfect.......schools almost over and i need a job so i can take my girl out every once in awhile where she aint got to payu for it the moms money tree is runnung out she says......so its time to get a job......my birthday was a cuple days ago big 17 my girl got me this pissy ass jacket.....thanks baby....but thats all for now

I LOVE U HEATHER

Current Mood: loved

05:18 pm - so pissy

SO tight, everything in my life is so much better now i have lost all feelings for heather so that will never workout again......darn.......we are friends though......i go out with my girl brooke tabler now....so fine!......i been hangin out with the boys every weekend and i usually meet up with brooke at party......i like this girl so much and its only been 2 days goin out but we been talkin for abotu 3 weeks now and i asked her out the other night.....she said yes....i trust her so much its so pissy she is what i was lookin for she lets me have freedom and i dont have to worry about her doin anything behind my back.....but life is great and i am so better now got my hair cut off and got the perfect relationship....

im out holla at me

Current Mood: crazy

04:49 pm - Wow

I dont know what to do...i thought that i could live without being with her but i cant all i wish for is that she would give me another chance she knows that i still love her to death and i know that she still loves me.....i know that things got bad but thats becuase i was being an idiot and wanted to be with her everyday and thats what broke us up.....through all of this i realized that i will love her forever.....I know that heather is the girl for me things are so perfect when we are together yea they get a lil rocky but we usually get through it.....i just want back what i used to have i love that girl so much and then when i see her i just want to be able to give her a hug or a kiss but i cant...I love u heather....sry for everything that i have ever done to u  ;(

Well lastnight was my first soccer game sense i broke my ankle so i had heather come and watch and her mom sense heather was sucha good girlfriend and was at the hospital everyday for me after i had my surgery.....so we won and i scored that was tight....played some nasty ass team bunch of bitches....the game got stoped early because things were gettin out of control. Then i talked to heather after the game and........i dont know what to say i want to be with her so bad....but i feel like i have no chance.....but we will see.....then went to LEES famous recipe and got some chicken and potatoes and beans nummm! that shit was so good then talked on the computer for a bit to heather then i went and jumped in the shower then she called me and we talked some more about stuff....so that was my day......it was alright because i got to see her  :)

thats all for now Update later

I LOVE HER STILL SO MUCH....motherfuckers dont hate either

Current Mood: depressed

03:07 pm - Fuckin free

I aint updated this is a while....I havent had so much fun in a long time im kinda happy that she did this to me because it shows me how much more fun i can have i mean we are still friends and i will always be here for her to talk to if she needs help and i know that she will do the same for me and u know that im talkin to "HEATHER".

Every weekend so far i have been at kings or hangin out  with all the boys and i been drunk everynight on the weekends...this friday went to the fruitport and heights game they got there as beat by the heights then  went back to kings and it was fucking nasty out so we stayed in the basement and got drunk...i was so fucked up i almost drowned in kings sink but he pulled me out thanks buddy... saturday i had a hangover bad from the night before so i stayed home while everyone went to the club and i had to watch my sister parents has to bowl....so they got home at 1 and then me and cujo left because my mom is fuckin awesome now she treats me tight now....so we left and went to a party in the ridge that was gay left there went to jessicas hosue she was sleepin so we went to jackies house so cujo could try to hit no success.....so we finally went home at 4......Sunday didnt do much woke up changed the breaks on my car went and hung out with christopher and then went and hung out with cujo....then came home and talked to jessica for awhile then she went to bed so i went to......now its monday and i am at home doin my homework and tryin to find a job and then goin to visit jessica at the mall in hollister because she has to work....i think we alll might head to the club this weekend so all u girls should prolly go.

Im out. peace

Current Mood: horny

10:11 pm

Not much tonight went and watched the travel team...saw heather for a minute......this shit is hard man prolly the hardest thing ive ever went through with her i just hope that we can work it out like always i cant go on like this without her i know now that she needs her space but it is hard i love her so much i just want to be back together the way things used to be but maybe not hang out everynight then things could work i know they could i just need a chance to prove it to her.....so im prayin everynight that i get the only thing that matters to me "heather" back....Im out...

I love her so much;(

Current Mood: crushed

11:02 pm

Heather i love u so much im fucking lost without u....i cant stand this shit why does it have to happen

Current Mood: depressed

03:23 pm

Today was alright i guess school was shitty but i found out that i got a c in geometry so it will be my last year of effin math thank the lord..... i cant wait til i graduate next year that will be tight  can move out on my own but waht sucks is that my girl will still be in school so i can go pick her up for lunch and stuff....its goin to suck having to get a job and shit and pay for everything by myslef.

So today i am goin to go watch my travel team play soccer because i still cant play but i gotta support my team....i think that my girl is goin to go with me if not i will be sad but what can i say.

ME & HEATHER.....So everything has been goin great lately unlike a couple of weeks ago we were fightin everynight over stupid shit and i was just ready to die cause i hate it when we fight becausethe first thing that pops into my head is that im goin to lose her.... but that hasnt been the case so far and i hope that i will never lose her again.......we started fightin again today cause i guess that i take things the wrong way which i do but i dont know it just kind of hurts me when we fight..... she is the only girl in my life and she means the world to me.....i just wish that she could be here with me so that i could cuddle with her but owell i guess.

I love u heather rae

Current Mood: confused

03:46 pm - IM aN AsShOLe:( Sry Babe

ok so the last coupld days i have been bein an asshole for no apparent reason and i almost last my girl cause of it......ive just been bein grumpy and not really sayin anything to her and shes been stressin out cause of it and school and she thinks that i dont want to be with her........i do i love her so much and we have put so much time into this relationship that i never want it to end because she is the greatest thing in my life........she has always been there for me no matter what. so last night we were talkin and stuff and she was about ready to call it quits and thats when it hit me that i have been actin different just because ive not been really talkin when she said that she was almost ready to call it quits...i really started thinkin where would i be without her in my life.....i would prolly go fuckin nuts.......so i decided that tonight everything is goin to change im goin to be the boyfriend that i used to be i promise...I LOVE U BABE

right now im chillen just got done foldin clothes and she is at school retakin some tests and she is supposed to come over when she is done....i cant wait to see her i love spending time with her so much thats what i look forward to everday is seein my girl.

today was along day at school it seemedlike forever at least unitl i got to 5th hour then it went fast cause we had a tight sub MR. McGaw that was alot of fun me and t buff were palyin around all hour we had some fun then we went to six hour and lifted my arms hurt like a bitch......tomorrow is already friday im love it when its friday  best day of the whole week!but thats it for now

BabE i cANT wait tO SeE U tOniGhT.....sry for bein an asshole lately....im done with that now!

I LOVE U WITH MY LIFE:)

Current Mood: excited

12:19 pm - chillen

Right now im chillen waitin for a phone call from my girl she is supposed to come get me.....then we are goin to her house to chill like normal

im almost done wiht this ankle thing i have a Dr appointment this friday so we will see what he has to say hopefully i will be able to drive again cause im sick of all the bitchin about havin to run me places and shit......its not like i chose to break my ankle......god bitches.......but if he says still no weight on it im goin to cry im so sick of just chillen and im sure my girl is to.

Yesterday which was wednesday we had a snowday that was tight it was perfect timing cause then i didnt have to take exams which i fuckin hate.....so i slept til like 11 then got up called my girl then she came over even thought she didnt feel good then we layed in bed for awhile finally i got up and we got on the computer and heather and nicole fuckin changed heathers journal around and shit that took forever cause she is so picky but it turned out tight......funniest thing ever i was on the phone last night with heather and there was a commercial on and we were watchin the same thing but she goes thats pissy huh.....never ever heard her talk like that.

tomorrow i have geometry exam and then gym and i dont have an exam for that but if i arent there then u fail so i have to stay at school for that but owell myabe i will play bball with the boyz thats always tight then sense we had a snow day  we have exams on monday to but we only have a half a day so i guess thats alright but im out for now paece bitches

I LOVE U HEATHER

Current Mood: bored

10:34 pm

What up right now im chillen on the comp. tonight i went to my girls again we chilled with erica and t buff.......that was tight they fight alot they crack me up they were made fer each other.....lol..........anyways last night i went to her house cause some stuff happend at my house that i dont feel like typin cause there is so much shit but lets just say that it really pissseedd her off and i hate seein her like that cause i dont know what to do to calm her down cause she just dont want me to touch her at all when she is mad so its really hard to see my girl like that but things are better now my dad aint bein gay so thats good..

Tonight we just chilled all night with t buffum and erica that was alright we aint reallly hung out with anybody in a long time be cause my ankle is still fucked up so i cant drive or walk or none of that shit its really startin to piss me off but i only got a cuple more weeks then hopefully i will be able to drive again then things will be all back to normal,,,.......but the thing that i like best is that through this whole injury heather has been there for me sense the day that it happend and i apreciate that very much.......that just shows how much that girl loves me.........i dont care what any other guy says about his girl but heather is honestly the best girlfriend that i could ever dream of.............I LOVE U BABE:)

but im out for tonight gotta go,,  LOVE U HEATHER RAE KANE

Current Mood: naughty

11:05 pm - Pissy........i love her to death:)

Christmas was tight got some new clothes tries for the tornado and heathers dad baught me a cd player for that.......we went and got my tires and cd player installed yesterday...that was tight my girl heather was with me......we dropped the car off at sears went into the mall......i got a new hate from AE its ny new favorite one........then we went and got the cd player put in came bach her and at dinner with my mom and dads friends.......then heather and i went to Bkellers to watch the movie "THEY" it was freaky.....thats all for last night

Gave her the ring for christmas i think that she likes it we have to go get it sized possibley tomorrow because they werent open today so then my mom brought us to her aunts and we did another christmas thing with her family......i think thats like thw 5th one its tight though  i know that whole family.........I LOVE that girl so much......with my life honest to god..........tonight after her family thing we camer back here and we started taring down my wall paper cause i get to get my room redone now its so pissy cant wait..

Tomorrow i have to get up when heather gets her tht will be pissy....then i get ready maybe go get her ring done then at 3 i get this damn cast off....then at like 7 i get a haircut leavin it long........then i just now talked to chris and me him were talki bout maybe doin something tomorrow with our girls but we will see if that happens my friends been bein gay they dont know how to return phone calls i guess but owell.... but im out

I LOVE U HEATHER

Current Mood: horny

08:59 pm

I LOVE HEATHER RAE KANE WITH MY FRICKEN LIFE<33

11:08 pm - I love my babe

hey what up chillen right now today went to the mall with cujo then came back home and heather came over around 3 then we chilled watched a movie.....thats all for tonight ...
LOVE U HEATHER

11:24 pm

Today  i went to heathers first soccer game with her new team and they actually won she scored 4 times i was so proud of my girl

then we went to her grannys to eat dinner then.....that was fun its alwasy fun when we got oher grandmas and its nice to sit by the fireplace and just cuddle with my girl...

Then we went back to heathers and chilled had a couple arguments and stuff like that nothin to serious.....

Talked about how we need to do stuff with our friends but u know i love bein with her everyday and she knows that but i think that when she starts hangin out wiht her friends she aint goin to have time for me maybe im bein silly but my worst fear is losing the girl that i love so much;(

But im out peace..

LOVE U HEATHER RAE KANE

10:58 pm

Tonight was alright........i think that im done writin in this thing.............o welll....went and chilled at heathers tonight...........tomorrow is the last day of school just chillen all day but im out peace

Current Mood: depressed